Anxiety

You look into the mirror, what do you see? Beauty
I look at my reflection, shatter the glass cause I hate me
I hate everything, and if you scratched the surface
Uncover this earth and youll realize its all worthless
It all is, and thats fine, I want money through rhyme
I want it all to be mine, get rich in the nick of the time
The road less traveled by, goodbye, its the road I roam alone
Blisters from the pavement, penance from being stuck between stones
Oh, its all too much, her beauties somethin I could never touch
Only if she saw it too, my words I meant it all truly, no bluffs
But fuck it, I’m inconsistent, never enough to keep her smile
Alot of people have left, could you be the one to stay a while?
Never, alone I stay only seeing my own demise
My girl talkin to other guys, I fuckin hate these lies
And I fuckin hate these eyes, seen it all it kills my mood
Youre stupid if you dont notice my only shield is my attitude
I’ll always struggle, I swear, even when the end is almost near
Even through it all, losing you is somethin I have always feared
See me with my words, and I’ll still remain unseen
I lived my whole life out in the pursuit of dreams
Guess I work too hard sometimes and all I need is some sleep… please

I never see my girlfriend.

Fucking sucks. Whatever.

Anonymous said:

your content with everything? and are you going to go to college? if so where and what about your relationship if your going far away


lmao this shits like an interview I swearr. But I’m not content with everything, shits crazy and always has been. I’m happy the way some things are goin and im depressed about how others are. But thats just the way it is. I’m still workin hard regardless. But yes, I will be goin to college. QCC in worcester for a year and then I’m transferring to a college..not sure which one yet. As for the whole relationship thing, time will tell. I dont plan on losin my girl so I guess we’ll just have to see what happens.


Anonymous said:

thoughts on ur life atm?


Life is everything. Good, bad, hard, easy. just everything. I just graduated from highschool so I’m excited to be able to start a new chapter of my life. alot of weight has been lifted on my shoulders. but at the same time I know whats ahead of me. I have a long road that won’t be easy. But when has success ever been easy? I’m hungry, hungry for what I never had. I wanna make my mom proud of me. I wanna be the friend that made it big. I want it all. And i know its there, waiting. I will seize it. mark my words I will. Lifes a trip and im startin to take the time to enjoy what I have. I have my dark days…I’m not the most optomistic person when it comes to some things, I dont wanna be alone. I want my relationship to workout. But I know as long as I keep doin the right things and keep my head straight itll all work out. I got big plans.